Xray Done

Had done my Xray. Couldnt stand it no more. Gonna fix this!

Good news: Slipped disc ruled out.

Bad news: some shadow found between my lower back and thigh area. Doc is not able to detect what is that shadow. It could be as simple as nerves sitting on nerves, muscles sitting on nerves (which Ben said I have no muscles to begin with -_-"") or worst case, kidney stones sitting on nerve. I totally reject the last reason! Had also found out that my spine has a teeny weeny abnormal degree from normal folks. Was told that everyone has some curvature in the spine near the lower end but mine is straight. This was since birth and it should not be the cause of the pain I'm having. Weird thing is why the nurses in school last time not detect this? I remembered them taking some ruler thingy to measure our back didn't they?

So I gonna wait till 9 Nov to take my ultrascan to see what the heck is that shadow about! Yes NOV!!! Gonna endure the pain for another 1.5 mths. So absurd but this is the earliest appt. Seriously, one hurdle after another. I hope this is the last. The first start with my IBS seeing the gastrologist, then some spotting problems seeing the gynae. Now this spine seeing a orthopeadic. I think I'm going to be introduced to all the specialist names soon! Crap rite? Worst thing is all the money I'm spending because every damn case will be refered to a specialist and cant be solved at the GP level.

Consolation: I can walk , sit and sleep normally. I do not need to hunch my back. Only sudden changes in positions or prolong sitting/standing will cause the pain. If not, I'm pretty normal like any of you. I'm just very afraid to sneeze that's all.

Anyway, amidst all these nonsense, I do not know why MOE suddenly gave me a 20% increment this month. I wasnt told that I will have any confirmation increment and besides, I'm not confirmed yet too. I just hope it's not a mistake like years ago otherwise, I will have to pay them back. It's not that I'm complaining but I find it fishy. Anyway, will check again in Oct. hopefully it really stays...

Bad Back Ache

Still on... still searching for a remedy. =(

After various sin seh, still as bad as ever. Time for western doctors' injection. If it still persists, say hello to Xray soon!

Oh MY BACK~~~~~

Naive? Innocent? Maybe Time Has Changed...

This 9 years old came to me and asked me to read her blog. Pretty shocked to find out some stuffs in her blog. She is very opinionted and a perfectionist. So things in her blog can get pretty offending to some people. She complained about some teachers using HP in class. Pasted the whole conversation of the teacher and her in her blog. Although it is nothing much RA but still, I tot it was not very appropriate if parents see it.

She talked about wishing to tell her granny to go and die if it wasnt her granny. She talked about her new father and old father, cursing him there. Sounds very immature?

Then she goes on saying things like Happiness is unperfect. There is no such thing as perfect happiness but we have to be contented and went on to explain about it. Things like that? Is this mature enough then?

Scary right? I mean when I was 9, I was all about playing five stones, hopscotch etc. These kids are talking about second life, twitter, online world etc and then started all these blog entries that sounds like some adults. I want to paste her blog add here so you will get the idea but I tot it is not so appropriate so I'm going to give it a miss in case someone come and stomped me and then make a hoo haa about it. Lolx.. ok ok.. i know i'm not a star blogger but still... pple find things to 'catch' and talk about!

My Very First Teachers' Day

Honestly, I went to school as per normal today. I've never had my Teachers' Day before and I do not know what to expect. Afterall, I'm only a new teacher in the school. How much impact can I make to a child there. I'm there for only 6 months...

I began to realise that children formed relationship very easily. Now I began to see some lights. For adults, we tend to share our emotions and get attached to our other half, parents and even friends, but children have only parents, siblings and teachers whom they will get attached and looked up to. They are thus very emotional too.

I was indeed very surprised to get many presents. It felt like my birthday once again. I decided to tell them to give me red pens instead next year because I got so many things which I totally do not need at all. Many of them actually drew me cards, created powerpoints for me. They are at most 9 years old.

This girl in my primary 2 class came to me and said "Miss Ho, I cannot buy you any presents because I have no money. I will do a card and PPT for you" So on the spot, she created a PPT with beautifully written poems for me. To think it came from an 8 years old. She wrote things like "You are as precious as jewels. You are as beautiful as rainbow." Blah blah... I wondered who taught her all these because I never once did. She told me it popped in her mind just like that.

I also got gifts from students whom I only came across during relief lessons and I did not know that a short conversation with them has caused them to remember it, making them think it's worthwhile to give me something as an appreciation. This is the kind of satisfaction I will never have last time.

Then I have this boy who is very funny. I dunno if it's really a silly mistake or done on purpose. I will give him the benefit of doubts. Miss Koh (Maths teacher) and I (Miss Ho - English teacher) teaches him. He gave me a bookmark saying Miss Koh, Happy teachers Day. I looked at him "Varian, I'm Miss Ho. Not Miss Koh" --__--""" He went, 'No, no. My dad wrote wrongly. It's for you. It's my dad's mistake" I accepted it.

Back to the staff room, I told Miss Koh about it. So I expected Varian to also give her a bookmark too. Then she said Varian did not give her anything. Lolx. So I said it's with me. She told me she scolded him earlier so perhaps he decided to give it to me. Lolx. This boy is really a joke!

Then I went to my Pri 1 class. My favourite student, Marcus, came to me so honestly and said "Miss Ho, i really want to give you a present. But my daddy and mummy said I can only buy one present for my form teacher. You are my Arts teacher so I cannot give you. Very sorry." So cute right? haha

Some of them gave me cards and certificate like, you are very hardworking. Keep it up. You have earned a diploma in best teacher. lolx.. Since when they became my boss ah?

Anyway, these are the gifts on my table. =) It really feels like it's my birthday once again with friends SMS-ing me wishing me too. Haha.

Today, I realised that we should never belittle ourselves. You will never know how much impact you made in the innocent heart. Just last Friday on a chinese documentary, this sick boy was earnestly looking for his teacher. It happened that this teacher is in my school. I asked him what he had done to the kid who is now 25 years old. He said this boy was suffering from some muscle diseases and he actually carried him around for 3 years in his primary school life. Very touching right? =)